When God’s Good Isn’t Good Enough For Me

Today I asked myself this question, would I give up anything to learn more about God? He is so great and unfathomable, but I find myself being comfortable with what I already know about Him. If I truly could wrap my mind around how great He is, wouldn’t I give up anything just to know Him more?

If that is true, then I don’t even have a glimpse of how great He is.

A lot of times, whenever I read my Bible, I realize I do it so I won’t feel guilty about it later. Or so I can study and then get on with my day. I don’t study to truly get to know God more. And lately I have been in such a rut. I feel stuck. I’m not growing in my relationship with God, but it doesn’t feel like I’m backsliding… I’ve heard people say that everyday that you aren’t closer to God than the last, then you are backslidden.

I wonder how many Christians are like me? Imagine what a spiritual difference it would make if we started seeking after Him like we are capable of?

Whenever I hear Romans 1:25 “Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.” I always think of hippies. (Am I the only one who does that ? :P) But honestly, that verse is talking about me as much as it is about hippies! Whenever I put the opinions of my friends, my family, my husband, whenever I put time with my phone, my cats, or books over God, then I worship the creation more than the Creator.

Last night was my church’s first night of revival, and my husband preached about hell. He brought up how they tortured and crucified Christ. I’ve heard the story and seen the illustrations a hundred times. But just like my husband said, I had become numb to just what Jesus had went through. To just how great the sacrifice was.

But this morning I woke up and realized that Jesus didn’t just go through crucifixion to save us from our sin. But He also went through it so we will be able to get to know God on an intimate level. But just how many people actually do that?

How many Christians take for granted the ability we have to get to know God? If I truly could even get a glimpse of how great God is, I would like to think that I would give up anything for Him. But honestly, I know the greatest act of love God ever committed (sacrificing His son) and I still push Him aside for my own wants and needs.

God is omniscient. He knew that when He sacrificed Jesus that we (as Christians) would still reject Him to go after our own wants.

For me, knowing that even though I don’t try to get to know Him more than I do now, and yet He still died for me, makes me want to know Him more. But I guess He knows that too (Was that confusing enough? haha).

There is a song that I absolutely love. Every time I listen to it, I get chills. More than once I have had to pull off the road while listening to this song just so I can pray to God.

“What Do I Know Of Holy” by Addison Road.

Here are some lyrics that I think perfectly explain how I feel;

“I guess I thought that I had figured You out, I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about, How You were mighty to save, Those were only empty words on a page, Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be, The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees.”

Deuteronomy 8:14 “Then thine heart be lifted up, and thou forget the LORD thy God, which brought thee forth out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage. Who led thee through that great and terrible wilderness, wherein were fiery serpents, and scorpions, and drought, where there was no water; who brought thee forth water out of the rock of flint; Who fed thee in the wilderness with manna, which thy fathers knew not, that he might humble thee, to do thee good at thy latter end; And thou say in thine heart, My power and the might of mine hand hath gotten me this wealth.”

It looks like I am not the only one who has forgotten God in the midst of all His blessings in my life.

Isaiah 43:22-25 “But thou hast not called upon me, O Jacob; but thou hast been weary of me, O Israel.”

Verses 23 and 24 go on to talk about how they stopped making offerings to God and sacrifices.

Then verse 25 says “I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins.”

Even though the chosen people stopped giving God the glory He deserved, he still covered up their transgressions.

Isaiah 44:22 “I have blotted out, as a thick cloud, thy transgressions, and, as a cloud, thy sins: return unto me; for I have redeemed thee.”

Matthew 7:7 “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:”

I don’t want to get a glimpse of God and then be content with it until the next time I feel like I want more of Him. I want to consistently seek after Him for the right reasons. I don’t want the good that God has given me to take place of His goodness. I don’t want to be complacent! I know that I am capable of knowing God more than I can fathom on this side of Heaven. So I don’t want Christ’s sacrifice to be in vain. I don’t want to just be saved but I also want to seek Him. If you are like me and just do what you are suppose to as a Christian to “get by”. Then we are both missing out on not only blessings from God, but more importantly, God himself.