My Blistering Heart

Whenever I cook something new I almost always burn something. Whether it be my self or the food, something gets burned….. (my poor hungry husband).One time I was cooking with both front burners on, I forgot about it and laid my hand on the hot burner. I immediately ran in under cold water. In an instant of pain I ran towards immediate relief. For something to just numb the pain and make it bearable. And even though it provided that, it was fleeting.

The rest of the day I walked around the house with my hand submerged in a cup of cold water and ice. But once the ice melted the pain came right back. After awhile the cup became obnoxious because it was constantly hindering me from doing simple things I enjoy doing. I couldn’t function normally with it.

Instead of dealing with my pain, I just distracted my self from it.

April was a tough month for me. And it seems like ever since then, I have been soaking my heart in a cup of water, trying to numb the pain. Sure my distractions provided instant relief and numbed my pain, but it just kept coming back after those distractions vanished, and once you take your hand out of that cold water the pain feels even worse than before.

My distractions left my heart feeling numb and blistered. My spiritual life became unfunctionable because of what I was carrying around with me.

I chose distractions instead of healing because healing takes time.. it isn’t immediate or painless.

“We get confused when suffering comes when we think God is more committed to our comfort than He is to our sanctification.” – Jackie Hill Perry

I have a scar on my hand from cooking that day, I think I might have one on my heart from April. Though it’s ugly and brings painful memories, it reminds me of healing. That God is sovereign. This year has changed my view of God through the pain He put me through I now see how loving He is.

If you have been burned, don’t be like me and distract yourself from the pain, because in that process you’ll miss out seeing the blessings.

Psalm 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”

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