I’ve never really been scared of a lot of things. Only clowns, the occasional creepy dream, and sleep paralysis. I would say those are my 3 biggest fears. Oh, and perfectly shaped circles or holes. I think it is called trypophobia. Looking at them just make me sick. Those are my fears. I think they are pretty normal and rational! There are a lot of books, podcasts, and sermons on fear but I honestly never gravitate towards them because I feel no need for it. I don’t really have a problem with fear. That is for people who are deathly afraid of heights, or germs, or the dark. Not me, I’m not afraid of anything really.
Lately there has been a lot of circumstances enter my life that are kind of a big deal. I’m not afraid of these circumstances, but I am worried. What if everything goes wrong? What if this isn’t meant to be? What if the worst possible situation that can happen actually does happen… I mentioned this to someone the other day and they pointed out that, that was indeed fear. I never really thought about it, fear isn’t just your typical spiders and snakes, but it is also control. If I don’t have control over certain situations, I start to get afraid. Things could happen and I can do nothing about it. It is out of my control. That is when I start to get scared.
Like I said, there is currently a lot of circumstances in my life that I have absolutely no control over. It’s been a stressful week, but I know now that it doesn’t have to be. Instead of fear I can trust. I can hope. I can have faith. The Bible actually says a lot about fear. More than I anticipated that it would. Instead of babbling on more about fear, I’ll let the Bible speak for itself. This is one passage that really spoke to my heart.
Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but the boat by this time was a long way from the land, beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them. And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
The disciples were understandably scared I mean they could no longer see the land, the waves and wind were strong, it was late at night, and then they started seeing ghosts (I also would count ghosts as another rational fear). It turns out though, it was Jesus. They were afraid of their very own Savior. The one who controls the wind and the waves, the sun and the moon. He was the “ghost”. I used to just assume that when Jesus said “It is I, do not be afraid.”, he was strictly speaking of the “ghost” they seen. But I think he also meant the waves and the winds. It was him. He controls the waves, He controls the wind, He controlled the storm the disciples were so afraid of.
I feel like I am in a storm right now, the waves, the wind, I can’t see the land from where I am at (Although I haven’t started seeing ghost yet). But, I shouldn’t be afraid, though I can’t control them, I know who does. And I know he put me in the storm for a reason. It. Is. Jesus. All my storms in life, are Christ. Do not be afraid ❤