I Don’t Want To Talk To God

There are times in my life where i just feel numb. I will try to pray, and give up. I will look at my Bible, and have no urge to read it. I don’t feel happy. I don’t feel sad. I just have no peace. 

The world tries to sell me peace through self-help books, early morning yoga classes, a warm cup of coffee in a cozy corner.

But none of those things (and I have tried them all) are true peace. Peace of mind, maybe for a moment. But once i finish that self-help book, roll up my yoga mat, and finish that warm cup of coffee (or three), the uneasiness settles back in.

During these times, I really just don’t care to spend time with God. I want to care though. I miss the closeness I have known with God. I miss the peace.

So, what do I do? 

Psalm 51:10-12 “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a wiling spirit.”

First of all, confess of any sin or idols you have in your life. Start out on the right foot with God by humbling yourself and just being like “Lord, I know I have all these sins, but I want to get close to you, please forgive me.”

And then ask God to renew a right spirit within you. Just like David did. Ask HIm to restore the joy of salvation to you! I love these verses because it reminds me that i am not the only one who lost joy in my walk with God. Just knowing that gives me peace. 

Ask HIm to give you a willing spirit. There are a lot (alotta lot) of times where I’m just like, “God, I just don’t feel like reading right now. I don’t even feel like praying. I don’t want to go to church today, so please give me to want-to. Help me want to do this, and enjoy it while I am. I will ask Him to restore to me the joy of my salvation. That i won’t forget how He saved me and the way I felt in that moment.

Emotions are a gift from  God. But if I let my emotions be my measure for when I do and don’t read or pray, then I will stray from God very quickly, and lose my peace. 

Isaiah 26:3 “You keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trust in you.”

MIND FOCUSED ON GOD+TRUSTING SPIRIT= P E A C E

When I think about it, I mostly use the word “trust” when I or someone I know is going through a difficult time.

When things are going great in my relationships, everything is going as planned on my calendar, and I have more than 20$ in my bank account, I never say “I just need to trust God.”

This verse is a promise of perfect peace in the times when I don’t have the want-to to do anything, when my spirit is going through a difficult time. 

Philippians 4:6-9 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding , will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me- practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.”

If we think on these things, practice these things, request these things to God, the peace of God will be with you.